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Victory - PART THREE - Chapter FOUR Post by :ianb4info Category :Long Stories Author :Joseph Conrad Date :June 2011 Read :1268

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Victory - PART THREE - Chapter FOUR


With her knees drawn up, Lena rested her elbows on them and held her
head in both her hands.

"Are you tired of sitting here?" Heyst asked.

An almost imperceptible negative movement of the head was all the
answer she made.

"Why are you looking so serious?" he pursued, and immediately
thought that habitual seriousness, in the long run, was much more
bearable than constant gaiety. "However, this expression suits you
exceedingly," he added, not diplomatically, but because, by the
tendency of his taste, it was a true statement. "And as long as I
can be certain that it is not boredom which gives you this severe
air, I am willing to sit here and look at you till you are ready to

And this was true. He was still under the fresh sortilege of their
common life, the surprise of novelty, the flattered vanity of his
possession of this woman; for a man must feel that, unless he has
ceased to be masculine. Her eyes moved in his direction, rested on
him, then returned to their stare into the deeper gloom at the foot
of the straight tree-trunks, whose spreading crowns were slowly
withdrawing their shade. The warm air stirred slightly about her
motionless head. She would not look at him, from some obscure fear
of betraying herself. She felt in her innermost depths an
irresistible desire to give herself up to him more completely, by
some act of absolute sacrifice. This was something of which he did
not seem to have an idea. He was a strange being without needs.
She felt his eyes fixed upon her; and as he kept silent, she said
uneasily--for she didn't know what his silences might mean:

"And so you lived with that friend--that good man?"

"Excellent fellow," Heyst responded, with a readiness that she did
not expect. "But it was a weakness on my part. I really didn't
want to, only he wouldn't let me off, and I couldn't explain. He
was the sort of man to whom you can't explain anything. He was
extremely sensitive, and it would have been a tigerish thing to do
to mangle his delicate feelings by the sort of plain speaking that
would have been necessary. His mind was like a white-walled, pure
chamber, furnished with, say, six straw-bottomed chairs, and he was
always placing and displacing them in various combinations. But
they were always the same chairs. He was extremely easy to live
with; but then he got hold of this coal idea--or, rather, the idea
got hold of him, it entered into that scantily furnished chamber of
which I have just spoken, and sat on all the chairs. There was no
dislodging it, you know! It was going to make his fortune, my
fortune, everybody's fortune. In past years, in moments of doubt
that will come to a man determined to remain free from absurdities
of existence, I often asked myself, with a momentary dread, in what
way would life try to get hold of me? And this was the way. He got
it into his head that he could do nothing without me. And was I
now, he asked me, to spurn and ruin him? Well, one morning--I
wonder if he had gone down on his knees to pray that night!--one
morning I gave in."

Heyst tugged violently at a tuft of dried grass, and cast it away
from him with a nervous gesture.

"I gave in," he repeated.

Looking towards him with a movement of her eyes only, the girl
noticed the strong feeling on his face with that intense interest
which his person awakened in her mind and in her heart. But it soon
passed away, leaving only a moody expression.

"It's difficult to resist where nothing matters," he observed. "And
perhaps there is a grain of freakishness in my nature. It amused me
to go about uttering silly, commonplace phrases. I was never so
well thought of in the islands till I began to jabber commercial
gibberish like the veriest idiot. Upon my word, I believe that I
was actually respected for a time. I was as grave as an owl over
it; I had to be loyal to the man. I have been, from first to last,
completely, utterly loyal to the best of my ability. I thought he
understood something about coal. And if I had been aware that he
knew nothing of it, as in fact he didn't, well--I don't know what I
could have done to stop him. In one way or another I should have
had to be loyal. Truth, work, ambition, love itself, may be only
counters in the lamentable or despicable game of life, but when one
takes a hand one must play the game. No, the shade of Morrison
needn't haunt me. What's the matter? I say, Lena, why are you
staring like that? Do you feel ill?"

Heyst made as if to get on his feet. The girl extended her arm to
arrest him, and he remained staring in a sitting posture, propped on
one arm, observing her indefinable expression of anxiety, as if she
were unable to draw breath.

"What has come to you?" he insisted, feeling strangely unwilling to
move, to touch her.

"Nothing!" She swallowed painfully. "Of course it can't be. What
name did you say? I didn't hear it properly."

"Name?" repeated Heyst dazedly. "I only mentioned Morrison. It's
the name of that man of whom I've been speaking. What of it?"

"And you mean to say that he was your friend?"

"You have heard enough to judge for yourself. You know as much of
our connection as I know myself. The people in this part of the
world went by appearances, and called us friends, as far as I can
remember. Appearances--what more, what better can you ask for? In
fact you can't have better. You can't have anything else."

"You are trying to confuse me with your talk," she cried. "You
can't make fun of this."

"Can't? Well, no I can't. It's a pity. Perhaps it would have been
the best way," said Heyst, in a tone which for him could be called
gloomy. "Unless one could forget the silly business altogether."
His faint playfulness of manner and speech returned, like a habit
one has schooled oneself into, even before his forehead had cleared
completely. "But why are you looking so hard at me? Oh, I don't
object, and I shall try not to flinch. Your eyes--"

He was looking straight into them, and as a matter of fact had
forgotten all about the late Morrison at that moment.

"No," he exclaimed suddenly. "What an impenetrable girl you are
Lena, with those grey eyes of yours! Windows of the soul, as some
poet has said. The fellow must have been a glazier by vocation.
Well, nature has provided excellently for the shyness of your soul."

When he ceased speaking, the girl came to herself with a catch of
her breath. He heard her voice, the varied charm of which he
thought he knew so well, saying with an unfamiliar intonation:

"And that partner of yours is dead?"

"Morrison? Oh, yes, as I've told you, he--"

"You never told me."

"Didn't I? I thought I did; or, rather, I thought you must know.
It seems impossible that anybody with whom I speak should not know
that Morrison is dead."

She lowered her eyelids, and Heyst was startled by something like an
expression of horror on her face.

"Morrison!" she whispered in an appalled tone. "Morrison!" Her
head drooped. Unable to see her features, Heyst could tell from her
voice that for some reason or other she was profoundly moved by the
syllables of that unromantic name. A thought flashed through his
head--could she have known Morrison? But the mere difference of
their origins made it wildly improbable.

"This is very extraordinary!" he said. "Have you ever heard the
name before?"

Her head moved quickly several times in tiny affirmative nods, as if
she could not trust herself to speak, or even to look at him. She
was biting her lower lip.

"Did you ever know anybody of that name?" he asked.

The girl answered by a negative sign; and then at last she spoke,
jerkily, as if forcing herself against some doubt or fear. She had
heard of that very man, she told Heyst.

"Impossible!" he said positively. "You are mistaken. You couldn't
have heard of him, it's--"

He stopped short, with the thought that to talk like this was
perfectly useless; that one doesn't argue against thin air.

"But I did hear of him; only I didn't know then, I couldn't guess,
that it was your partner they were talking about."

"Talking about my partner?" repeated Heyst slowly.

"No." Her mind seemed almost as bewildered, as full of incredulity,
as his. "No. They were talking of you really; only I didn't know

"Who were they?" Heyst raised his voice. "Who was talking of me?
Talking where?"

With the first question he had lifted himself from his reclining
position; at the last he was on his knees before her, their heads on
a level.

"Why, in that town, in that hotel. Where else could it have been?"
she said.

The idea of being talked about was always novel to Heyst's
simplified conception of himself. For a moment he was as much
surprised as if he had believed himself to be a mere gliding shadow
among men. Besides, he had in him a half-unconscious notion that he
was above the level of island gossip.

"But you said first that it was of Morrison they talked," he
remarked to the girl, sinking on his heels, and no longer much
interested. "Strange that you should have the opportunity to hear
any talk at all! I was rather under the impression that you never
saw anybody belonging to the town except from the platform."

"You forget that I was not living with the other girls," she said.
"After meals they used to go back to the Pavilion, but I had to stay
in the hotel and do my sewing, or what not, in the room where they

"I didn't think of that. By the by, you never told me who they

"Why, that horrible red-faced beast," she said, with all the energy
of disgust which the mere thought of the hotel-keeper provoked in

"Oh, Schomberg!" Heyst murmured carelessly.

"He talked to the boss--to Zangiacomo, I mean. I had to sit there.
That devil-woman sometimes wouldn't let me go away. I mean Mrs.

"I guessed," murmured Heyst. "She liked to torment you in a variety
of ways. But it is really strange that the hotel-keeper should talk
of Morrison to Zangiacomo. As far as I can remember he saw very
little of Morrison professionally. He knew many others much

The girl shuddered slightly.

"That was the only name I ever overheard. I would get as far away
from them as I could, to the other end of the room, but when that
beast started shouting I could not help hearing. I wish I had never
heard anything. If I had got up and gone out of the room I don't
suppose the woman would have killed me for it; but she would have
rowed me in a nasty way. She would have threatened me and called me
names. That sort, when they know you are helpless, there's nothing
to stop them. I don't know how it is, but bad people, real bad
people that you can see are bad, they get over me somehow. It's the
way they set about downing one. I am afraid of wickedness."

Heyst watched the changing expressions of her face. He encouraged
her, profoundly sympathetic, a little amused.

"I quite understand. You needn't apologize for your great delicacy
in the perception of inhuman evil. I am a little like you."

"I am not very plucky," she said.

"Well! I don't know myself what I would do, what countenance I
would have before a creature which would strike me as being evil
incarnate. Don't you be ashamed!"

She sighed, looked up with her pale, candid gaze and a timid
expression on her face, and murmured:

"You don't seem to want to know what he was saying."

"About poor Morrison? It couldn't have been anything bad, for the
poor fellow was innocence itself. And then, you know, he is dead,
and nothing can possibly matter to him now."

"But I tell you that it was of you he was talking!" she cried.

"He was saying that Morrison's partner first got all there was to
get out of him, and then, and then--well, as good as murdered him--
sent him out to die somewhere!"

"You believe that of me?" said Heyst, after a moment of perfect

"I didn't know it had anything to do with you. Schomberg was
talking of some Swede. How was I to know? It was only when you
began telling me about how you came here--"

"And now you have my version." Heyst forced himself to speak
quietly. "So that's how the business looked from outside!" he

"I remember him saying that everybody in these parts knew the
story," the girl added breathlessly.

"Strange that it should hurt me!" mused Heyst to himself; "yet it
does. I seem to be as much of a fool as those everybodies who know
the story and no doubt believe it. Can you remember any more?" he
addressed the girl in a grimly polite tone. "I've often heard of
the moral advantages of seeing oneself as others see one. Let us
investigate further. Can't you recall something else that everybody

"Oh! Don't laugh!" she cried.

"Did I laugh? I assure you I was not aware of it. I won't ask you
whether you believe the hotel-keeper's version. Surely you must
know the value of human judgement!"

She unclasped her hands, moved them slightly, and twined her fingers
as before. Protest? Assent? Was there to be nothing more? He was
relieved when she spoke in that warm and wonderful voice which in
itself comforted and fascinated one's heart, which made her lovable.

"I heard this before you and I ever spoke to each other. It went
out of my memory afterwards. Everything went out of my memory then;
and I was glad of it. It was a fresh start for me, with you--and
you know it. I wish I had forgotten who I was--that would have been
best; and I very nearly did forget."

He was moved by the vibrating quality of the last words. She seemed
to be talking low of some wonderful enchantment, in mysterious terms
of special significance. He thought that if she only could talk to
him in some unknown tongue, she would enslave him altogether by the
sheer beauty of the sound, suggesting infinite depths of wisdom and

"But," she went on, "the name stuck in my head, it seems; and when
you mentioned it--"

"It broke the spell," muttered Heyst in angry disappointment as if
he had been deceived in some hope.

The girl, from her position a little above him, surveyed with still
eyes the abstracted silence of the man on whom she now depended with
a completeness of which she had not been vividly conscious before,
because, till then, she had never felt herself swinging between the
abysses of earth and heaven in the hollow of his arm. What if he
should grow weary of the burden?

"And, moreover, nobody had ever believed that tale!"

Heyst came out with an abrupt burst of sound which made her open her
steady eyes wider, with an effect of immense surprise. It was a
purely mechanical effect, because she was neither surprised nor
puzzled. In fact, she could understand him better then than at any
moment since she first set eyes on him.

He laughed scornfully.

"What am I thinking of?" he cried. "As if it could matter to me
what anybody had ever said or believed, from the beginning of the
world till the crack of doom!"

"I never heard you laugh till today," she observed. "This is the
second time!"

He scrambled to his feet and towered above her.

"That's because, when one's heart has been broken into in the way
you have broken into mine, all sorts of weaknesses are free to
enter--shame, anger, stupid indignation, stupid fears--stupid
laughter, too. I wonder what interpretation you are putting on it?"

"It wasn't gay, certainly," she said. "But why are you angry with
me? Are you sorry you took me away from those beasts? I told you
who I was. You could see it."

"Heavens!" he muttered. He had regained his command of himself. "I
assure you I could see much more than you could tell me. I could
see quite a lot that you don't even suspect yet, but you can't be
seen quite through."

He sank to the ground by her side and took her hand. She asked

"What more do you want from me?"

He made no sound for a time.

"The impossible, I suppose," he said very low, as one makes a
confidence, and pressing the hand he grasped.

It did not return the pressure. He shook his head as if to drive
away the thought of this, and added in a louder, light tone:

"Nothing less. And it isn't because I think little of what I've got
already. Oh, no! It is because I think so much of this possession
of mine that I can't have it complete enough. I know it's
unreasonable. You can't hold back anything--now."

"Indeed I couldn't," she whispered, letting her hand lie passive in
his tight grasp. "I only wish I could give you something more, or
better, or whatever it is you want."

He was touched by the sincere accent of these simple words.

"I tell you what you can do--you can tell me whether you would have
gone with me like this if you had known of whom that abominable
idiot of a hotel-keeper was speaking. A murderer--no less!"

"But I didn't know you at all then," she cried. "And I had the
sense to understand what he was saying. It wasn't murder, really.
I never thought it was."

"What made him invent such an atrocity?" Heyst exclaimed. "He seems
a stupid animal. He IS stupid. How did he manage to hatch that
pretty tale? Have I a particularly vile countenance? Is black
selfishness written all over my face? Or is that sort of thing so
universally human that it might be said of anybody?"

"It wasn't murder," she insisted earnestly.

"I know. I understand. It was worse. As to killing a man, which
would be a comparatively decent thing to do, well--I have never done

"Why should you do it?" she asked in a frightened voice.

"My dear girl, you don't know the sort of life I have been leading
in unexplored countries, in the wilds; it's difficult to give you an
idea. There are men who haven't been in such tight places as I have
found myself in who have had to--to shed blood, as the saying is.
Even the wilds hold prizes which tempt some people; but I had no
schemes, no plans--and not even great firmness of mind to make me
unduly obstinate. I was simply moving on, while the others,
perhaps, were going somewhere. An indifference as to roads and
purposes makes one meeker, as it were. And I may say truly, too,
that I never did care, I won't say for life--I had scorned what
people call by that name from the first--but for being alive. I
don't know if that is what men call courage, but I doubt it very

"You! You have no courage?" she protested.

"I really don't know. Not the sort that always itches for a weapon,
for I have never been anxious to use one in the quarrels that a man
gets into in the most innocent way sometimes. The differences for
which men murder each other are, like everything else they do, the
most contemptible, the most pitiful things to look back upon. No,
I've never killed a man or loved a woman--not even in my thoughts,
not even in my dreams."

He raised her hand to his lips, and let them rest on it for a space,
during which she moved a little closer to him. After the lingering
kiss he did not relinquish his hold.

"To slay, to love--the greatest enterprises of life upon a man! And
I have no experience of either. You must forgive me anything that
may have appeared to you awkward in my behaviour, inexpressive in my
speeches, untimely in my silences."

He moved uneasily, a little disappointed by her attitude, but
indulgent to it, and feeling, in this moment of perfect quietness,
that in holding her surrendered hand he had found a closer communion
than they had ever achieved before. But even then there still
lingered in him a sense of incompleteness not altogether overcome--
which, it seemed, nothing ever would overcome--the fatal
imperfection of all the gifts of life, which makes of them a
delusion and a snare.

All of a sudden he squeezed her hand angrily. His delicately
playful equanimity, the product of kindness and scorn, had perished
with the loss of his bitter liberty.

"Not murder, you say! I should think not. But when you led me to
talk just now, when the name turned up, when you understood that it
was of me that these things had been said, you showed a strange
emotion. I could see it."

"I was a bit startled," she said.

"At the baseness of my conduct?" he asked.

"I wouldn't judge you, not for anything."


"It would be as if I dared to judge everything that there is." With
her other hand she made a gesture that seemed to embrace in one
movement the earth and the heaven. "I wouldn't do such a thing."

Then came a silence, broken at last by Heyst:

"I! I! do a deadly wrong to my poor Morrison!" he cried. "I, who
could not bear to hurt his feelings. I, who respected his very
madness! Yes, this madness, the wreck of which you can see lying
about the jetty of Diamond Bay. What else could I do? He insisted
on regarding me as his saviour; he was always restraining the
eternal obligation on the tip of his tongue, till I was burning with
shame at his gratitude. What could I do? He was going to repay me
with this infernal coal, and I had to join him as one joins a
child's game in a nursery. One would no more have thought of
humiliating him than one would think of humiliating a child. What's
the use of talking of all this! Of course, the people here could
not understand the truth of our relation to each other. But what
business of theirs was it? Kill old Morrison! Well, it is less
criminal, less base--I am not saying it is less difficult--to kill a
man than to cheat him in that way. You understand that?"

She nodded slightly, but more than once and with evident conviction.
His eyes rested on her, inquisitive, ready for tenderness.

"But it was neither one nor the other," he went on. "Then, why I
your emotion? All you confess is that you wouldn't judge me."

She turned upon him her veiled, unseeing grey eyes in which nothing
of her wonder could be read.

"I said I couldn't," she whispered.

"But you thought that there was no smoke without fire!" the
playfulness of tone hardly concealed his irritation. "What power
there must be in words, only imperfectly heard--for you did not
listen with particular care, did you? What were they? What evil
effort of invention drove them into that idiot's mouth out of his
lying throat? If you were to try to remember, they would perhaps
convince me, too."

"I didn't listen," she protested. "What was it to me what they said
of anybody? He was saying that there never were such loving friends
to look at as you two; then, when you got all you wanted out of him
and got thoroughly tired of him, too, you kicked him out to go home
and die."

Indignation, with an undercurrent of some other feeling, rang in
these quoted words, uttered in her pure and enchanting voice. She
ceased abruptly and lowered her long, dark lashes, as if mortally
weary, sick at heart.

"Of course, why shouldn't you get tired of that or any other--
company? You aren't like anyone else, and--and the thought of it
made me unhappy suddenly; but indeed, I did not believe anything bad
of you. I--"

A brusque movement of his arm, flinging her hand away, stopped her
short. Heyst had again lost control of himself. He would have
shouted, if shouting had been in his character.

"No, this earth must be the appointed hatching planet of calumny
enough to furnish the whole universe. I feel a disgust at my own
person, as if I had tumbled into some filthy hole. Pah! And you--
all you can say is that you won't judge me; that you--"

She raised her head at this attack, though indeed he had not turned
to her.

"I don't believe anything bad of you," she repeated. "I couldn't."

He made a gesture as if to say:

"That's sufficient."

In his soul and in his body he experienced a nervous reaction from
tenderness. All at once, without transition, he detested her. But
only for a moment. He remembered that she was pretty, and, more,
that she had a special grace in the intimacy of life. She had the
secret of individuality which excites--and escapes.

He jumped up and began to walk to and fro. Presently his hidden
fury fell into dust within him, like a crazy structure, leaving
behind emptiness, desolation, regret. His resentment was not
against the girl, but against life itself--that commonest of snares,
in which he felt himself caught, seeing clearly the plot of plots
and unconsoled by the lucidity of his mind.

He swerved and, stepping up to her, sank to the ground by her side.
Before she could make a movement or even turn her head his way, he
took her in his arms and kissed her lips. He tasted on them the
bitterness of a tear fallen there. He had never seen her cry. It
was like another appeal to his tenderness--a new seduction. The
girl glanced round, moved suddenly away, and averted her face. With
her hand she signed imperiously to him to leave her alone--a command
which Heyst did not obey.

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PART THREE: CHAPTER FIVEWhen she opened her eyes at last and sat up, Heyst scrambled quicklyto his feet and went to pick up her cork helmet, which had rolled alittle way off. Meanwhile she busied herself in doing up her hair,plaited on the top of her head in two heavy, dark tresses, which hadcome loose. He tendered her the helmet in silence, and waited as ifunwilling to hear the sound of his own voice."We had better go down now," he suggested in a low tone.He extended his hand to help her up. He had the intention to smile,but

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PART THREE: CHAPTER THREEThat morning, as on all the others of the full tale of morningssince his return with the girl to Samburan, Heyst came out on theveranda and spread his elbows on the railing, in an easy attitude ofproprietorship. The bulk of the central ridge of the island cut offthe bungalow from sunrises, whether glorious or cloudy, angry orserene. The dwellers therein were debarred from reading early thefortune of the new-born day. It sprang upon them in its fulnesswith a swift retreat of the great shadow when the sun, clearing theridge, looked down, hot and dry, with