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Martin Chuzzlewit - Chapter FIFTY Post by :trebor95 Category :Long Stories Author :Charles Dickens Date :January 2011 Read :2081

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Martin Chuzzlewit - Chapter FIFTY

SURPRISES TOM PINCH VERY MUCH, AND SHOWS HOW
CERTAIN CONFIDENCES PASSED BETWEEN HIM AND HIS SISTER

 

It was the next evening; and Tom and his sister were sitting

together before tea, talking, in their usual quiet way, about a

great many things, but not at all about Lewsome's story or anything

connected with it; for John Westlock--really John, for so young a

man, was one of the most considerate fellows in the world--had

particularly advised Tom not to mention it to his sister just yet,

in case it should disquiet her. 'And I wouldn't, Tom,' he said,

with a little hesitation, 'I wouldn't have a shadow on her happy

face, or an uneasy thought in her gentle heart, for all the wealth

and honours of the universe!' Really John was uncommonly kind;

extraordinarily kind. If he had been her father, Tom said, he could

not have taken a greater interest in her.

 

But although Tom and his sister were extremely conversational, they

were less lively, and less cheerful, than usual. Tom had no idea

that this originated with Ruth, but took it for granted that he was

rather dull himself. In truth he was; for the lightest cloud upon

the Heaven of her quiet mind, cast its shadow upon Tom.

 

And there was a cloud on little Ruth that evening. Yes, indeed.

When Tom was looking in another direction, her bright eyes, stealing

on towards his face, would sparkle still more brightly than their

custom was, and then grow dim. When Tom was silent, looking out

upon the summer weather, she would sometimes make a hasty movement,

as if she were about to throw herself upon his neck; then check the

impulse, and when he looked round, show a laughing face, and speak

to him very merrily; when she had anything to give Tom, or had any

excuse for coming near him, she would flutter about him, and lay her

bashful hand upon his shoulder, and not be willing to withdraw it;

and would show by all such means that there was something on her

heart which in her great love she longed to say to him, but had not

the courage to utter.

 

So they were sitting, she with her work before her, but not working,

and Tom with his book beside him, but not reading, when Martin

knocked at the door. Anticipating who it was, Tom went to open it;

and he and Martin came back into the room together. Tom looked

surprised, for in answer to his cordial greeting Martin had hardly

spoken a word.

 

Ruth also saw that there was something strange in the manner of

their visitor, and raised her eyes inquiringly to Tom's face, as if

she were seeking an explanation there. Tom shook his head, and made

the same mute appeal to Martin.

 

Martin did not sit down but walked up to the window, and stood there

looking out. He turned round after a few moments to speak, but

hastily averted his head again, without doing so.

 

'What has happened, Martin?' Tom anxiously inquired. 'My dear

fellow, what bad news do you bring?'

 

'Oh, Tom!' replied Martin, in a tone of deep reproach. 'To hear you

feign that interest in anything that happens to me, hurts me even

more than your ungenerous dealing.'

 

'My ungenerous dealing! Martin! My--' Tom could say no more.

 

'How could you, Tom, how could you suffer me to thank you so

fervently and sincerely for your friendship; and not tell me, like a

man, that you had deserted me! Was it true, Tom! Was it honest! Was

it worthy of what you used to be--of what I am sure you used to be--

to tempt me, when you had turned against me, into pouring out my

heart! Oh, Tom!'

 

His tone was one of such strong injury and yet of so much grief for

the loss of a friend he had trusted in--it expressed such high past

love for Tom, and so much sorrow and compassion for his supposed

unworthiness--that Tom, for a moment, put his hand before his face,

and had no more power of justifying himself, than if he had been a

monster of deceit and falsehood.

 

'I protest, as I must die,' said Martin, 'that I grieve over the

loss of what I thought you; and have no anger in the recollection of

my own injuries. It is only at such a time, and after such a

discovery, that we know the full measure of our old regard for the

subject of it. I swear, little as I showed it--little as I know I

showed it--that when I had the least consideration for you, Tom, I

loved you like a brother.'

 

Tom was composed by this time, and might have been the Spirit of

Truth, in a homely dress--it very often wears a homely dress, thank

God!--when he replied to him.

 

'Martin,' he said, 'I don't know what is in your mind, or who has

abused it, or by what extraordinary means. But the means are false.

There is no truth whatever in the impression under which you labour.

It is a delusion from first to last; and I warn you that you will

deeply regret the wrong you do me. I can honestly say that I have

been true to you, and to myself. You will be very sorry for this.

Indeed, you will be very sorry for it, Martin.'

 

'I AM sorry,' returned Martin, shaking his head. 'I think I never

knew what it was to be sorry in my heart, until now.'

 

'At least,' said Tom, 'if I had always been what you charge me with

being now, and had never had a place in your regard, but had always

been despised by you, and had always deserved it, you should tell me

in what you have found me to be treacherous; and on what grounds you

proceed. I do not intreat you, therefore, to give me that

satisfaction as a favour, Martin, but I ask it of you as a right.'

 

'My own eyes are my witnesses,' returned Martin. 'Am I to believe

them?'

 

'No,' said Tom, calmly. 'Not if they accuse me.'

 

'Your own words. Your own manner,' pursued Martin. 'Am I to

believe THEM?'

 

'No,' replied Tom, calmly. 'Not if they accuse me. But they never

have accused me. Whoever has perverted them to such a purpose, has

wronged me almost as cruelly'--his calmness rather failed him here--

'as you have done.'

 

'I came here,' said Martin; 'and I appeal to your good sister to

hear me--'

 

'Not to her,' interrupted Tom. 'Pray, do not appeal to her. She

will never believe you.'

 

He drew her arm through his own, as he said it.

 

'I believe it, Tom!'

 

'No, no,' cried Tom, 'of course not. I said so. Why, tut, tut,

tut. What a silly little thing you are!'

 

'I never meant,' said Martin, hastily, 'to appeal to you against

your brother. Do not think me so unmanly and unkind. I merely

appealed to you to hear my declaration, that I came here for no

purpose of reproach--I have not one reproach to vent--but in deep

regret. You could not know in what bitterness of regret, unless you

knew how often I have thought of Tom; how long in almost hopeless

circumstances, I have looked forward to the better estimation of his

friendship; and how steadfastly I have believed and trusted in him.'

 

'Tut, tut,' said Tom, stopping her as she was about to speak. 'He

is mistaken. He is deceived. Why should you mind? He is sure to

be set right at last.'

 

'Heaven bless the day that sets me right!' cried Martin, 'if it

could ever come!'

 

'Amen!' said Tom. 'And it will!'

 

Martin paused, and then said in a still milder voice:

 

'You have chosen for yourself, Tom, and will be relieved by our

parting. It is not an angry one. There is no anger on my side--'

 

'There is none on mine,' said Tom.

 

'--It is merely what you have brought about, and worked to bring

about. I say again, you have chosen for yourself. You have made

the choice that might have been expected in most people situated as

you are, but which I did not expect in you. For that, perhaps, I

should blame my own judgment more than you. There is wealth and

favour worth having, on one side; and there is the worthless

friendship of an abandoned, struggling fellow, on the other. You

were free to make your election, and you made it; and the choice was

not difficult. But those who have not the courage to resist such

temptations, should have the courage to avow what they have yielded

to them; and I DO blame you for this, Tom: that you received me with

a show of warmth, encouraged me to be frank and plain-spoken,

tempted me to confide in you, and professed that you were able to be

mine; when you had sold yourself to others. I do not believe,' said

Martin, with emotion--'hear me say it from my heart--I CANNOT

believe, Tom, now that I am standing face to face with you, that it

would have been in your nature to do me any serious harm, even

though I had not discovered, by chance, in whose employment you

were. But I should have encumbered you; I should have led you into

more double-dealing; I should have hazarded your retaining the

favour for which you have paid so high a price, bartering away your

former self; and it is best for both of us that I have found out

what you so much desired to keep secret.'

 

'Be just,' said Tom; who, had not removed his mild gaze from

Martin's face since the commencement of this last address; 'be just

even in your injustice, Martin. You forget. You have not yet told

me what your accusation is!'

 

'Why should I?' returned Martin, waving his hand, and moving towards

the door. 'You could not know it the better for my dwelling on it,

and though it would be really none the worse, it might seem to me to

be. No, Tom. Bygones shall be bygones between us. I can take

leave of you at this moment, and in this place--in which you are so

amiable and so good--as heartily, if not as cheerfully, as ever I

have done since we first met. All good go with you, Tom!--I--'

 

'You leave me so? You can leave me so, can you?' said Tom.

 

'I--you--you have chosen for yourself, Tom! I--I hope it was a rash

choice,' Martin faltered. 'I think it was. I am sure it was! Good-

bye!'

 

And he was gone.

 

Tom led his little sister to her chair, and sat down in his own. He

took his book, and read, or seemed to read. Presently he said

aloud, turning a leaf as he spoke: 'He will be very sorry for this.'

And a tear stole down his face, and dropped upon the page.

 

Ruth nestled down beside him on her knees, and clasped her arms

about his neck.

 

'No, Tom! No, no! Be comforted! Dear Tom!'

 

'I am quite--comforted,' said Tom. 'It will be set right.'

 

'Such a cruel, bad return!' cried Ruth.

 

'No, no,' said Tom. 'He believes it. I cannot imagine why. But it

will be set right.'

 

More closely yet, she nestled down about him; and wept as if her

heart would break.

 

'Don't. Don't,' said Tom. 'Why do you hide your face, my dear!'

 

Then in a burst of tears, it all broke out at last.

 

'Oh Tom, dear Tom, I know your secret heart. I have found it out;

you couldn't hide the truth from me. Why didn't you tell me? I am

sure I could have made you happier, if you had! You love her, Tom,

so dearly!'

 

Tom made a motion with his hand as if he would have put his sister

hurriedly away; but it clasped upon hers, and all his little history

was written in the action. All its pathetic eloquence was in the

silent touch.

 

'In spite of that,' said Ruth, 'you have been so faithful and so

good, dear; in spite of that, you have been so true and self-

denying, and have struggled with yourself; in spite of that, you

have been so gentle, and so kind, and even-tempered, that I have

never seen you give a hasty look, or heard you say one irritable

word. In spite of all, you have been so cruelly mistaken. Oh Tom,

dear Tom, will THIS be set right too! Will it, Tom? Will you always

have this sorrow in your breast; you who deserve to be so happy; or

is there any hope?'

 

And still she hid her face from Tom, and clasped him round the neck,

and wept for him, and poured out all her woman's heart and soul in

the relief and pain of this disclosure.

 

It was not very long before she and Tom were sitting side by side,

and she was looking with an earnest quietness in Tom's face. Then

Tom spoke to her thus, cheerily, though gravely:

 

'I am very glad, my dear, that this has passed between us. Not

because it assures me of your tender affection (for I was well

assured of that before), but because it relieves my mind of a great

weight.'

 

Tom's eyes glistened when he spoke of her affection; and he kissed

her on the cheek.

 

'My dear girl,' said Tom; 'with whatever feeling I regard her'--they

seemed to avoid the name by mutual consent--'I have long ago--I am

sure I may say from the very first--looked upon it as a dream. As

something that might possibly have happened under very different

circumstances, but which can never be. Now, tell me. What would

you have set right?'

 

She gave Tom such a significant little look, that he was obliged to

take it for an answer whether he would or no; and to go on.

 

'By her own choice and free consent, my love, she is betrothed to

Martin; and was, long before either of them knew of my existence.

You would have her betrothed to me?'

 

'Yes,' she said directly.

 

'Yes,' rejoined Tom, 'but that might be setting it wrong, instead of

right. Do you think,' said Tom, with a grave smile, 'that even if

she had never seen him, it is very likely she would have fallen in

love with Me?'

 

'Why not, dear Tom?'

 

Tom shook his head, and smiled again.

 

'You think of me, Ruth,' said Tom, 'and it is very natural that you

should, as if I were a character in a book; and you make it a sort

of poetical justice that I should, by some impossible means or

other, come, at last, to marry the person I love. But there is a

much higher justice than poetical justice, my dear, and it does not

order events upon the same principle. Accordingly, people who read

about heroes in books, and choose to make heroes of themselves out

of books, consider it a very fine thing to be discontented and

gloomy, and misanthropical, and perhaps a little blasphemous,

because they cannot have everything ordered for their individual

accommodation. Would you like me to become one of that sort of

people?'

 

'No, Tom. But still I know,' she added timidly, 'that this is a

sorrow to you in your own better way.'

 

Tom thought of disputing the position. But it would have been mere

folly, and he gave it up.

 

'My dear,' said Tom, 'I will repay your affection with the Truth and

all the Truth. It is a sorrow to me. I have proved it to be so

sometimes, though I have always striven against it. But somebody

who is precious to you may die, and you may dream that you are in

heaven with the departed spirit, and you may find it a sorrow to

wake to the life on earth, which is no harder to be borne than when

you fell asleep. It is sorrowful to me to contemplate my dream

which I always knew was a dream, even when it first presented

itself; but the realities about me are not to blame. They are the

same as they were. My sister, my sweet companion, who makes this

place so dear, is she less devoted to me, Ruth, than she would have

been, if this vision had never troubled me? My old friend John, who

might so easily have treated me with coldness and neglect, is he

less cordial to me? The world about me, is there less good in that?

Are my words to be harsh and my looks to be sour, and is my heart to

grow cold, because there has fallen in my way a good and beautiful

creature, who but for the selfish regret that I cannot call her my

own, would, like all other good and beautiful creatures, make me

happier and better! No, my dear sister. No,' said Tom stoutly.

'Remembering all my means of happiness, I hardly dare to call this

lurking something a sorrow; but whatever name it may justly bear, I

thank Heaven that it renders me more sensible of affection and

attachment, and softens me in fifty ways. Not less happy. Not less

happy, Ruth!'

 

She could not speak to him, but she loved him, as he well deserved.

Even as he deserved, she loved him.

 

'She will open Martin's eyes,' said Tom, with a glow of pride, 'and

that (which is indeed wrong) will be set right. Nothing will

persuade her, I know, that I have betrayed him. It will be set

right through her, and he will be very sorry for it. Our secret,

Ruth, is our own, and lives and dies with us. I don't believe I

ever could have told it you,' said Tom, with a smile, 'but how glad

I am to think you have found it out!'

 

They had never taken such a pleasant walk as they took that night.

Tom told her all so freely and so simply, and was so desirous to

return her tenderness with his fullest confidence, that they

prolonged it far beyond their usual hour, and sat up late when they

came home. And when they parted for the night there was such a

tranquil, beautiful expression in Tom's face, that she could not

bear to shut it out, but going back on tiptoe to his chamber-door,

looked in and stood there till he saw her, and then embracing him

again, withdrew. And in her prayers and in her sleep--good times to

be remembered with such fervour, Tom!--his name was uppermost.

 

When he was left alone, Tom pondered very much on this discovery of

hers, and greatly wondered what had led her to it. 'Because,'

thought Tom, 'I have been so very careful. It was foolish and

unnecessary in me, as I clearly see now, when I am so relieved by

her knowing it; but I have been so very careful to conceal it from

her. Of course I knew that she was intelligent and quick, and for

that reason was more upon my guard; but I was not in the least

prepared for this. I am sure her discovery has been sudden too.

Dear me!' said Tom. 'It's a most singular instance of penetration!'

 

Tom could not get it out of his head. There it was, when his head

was on his pillow.

 

'How she trembled when she began to tell me she knew it!' thought

Tom, recalling all the little incidents and circumstances; 'and how

her face flushed! But that was natural! Oh, quite natural! That

needs no accounting for.'

 

Tom little thought how natural it was. Tom little knew that there

was that in Ruth's own heart, but newly set there, which had helped

her to the reading of his mystery. Ah, Tom! He didn't understand

the whispers of the Temple Fountain, though he passed it every day.

 

Who so lively and cheerful as busy Ruth next morning! Her early tap

at Tom's door, and her light foot outside, would have been music to

him though she had not spoken. But she said it was the brightest

morning ever seen; and so it was; and if it had been otherwise, she

would have made it so to Tom.

 

She was ready with his neat breakfast when he went downstairs, and

had her bonnet ready for the early walk, and was so full of news,

that Tom was lost in wonder. She might have been up all night,

collecting it for his entertainment. There was Mr Nadgett not come

home yet, and there was bread down a penny a loaf, and there was

twice as much strength in this tea as in the last, and the milk-

woman's husband had come out of the hospital cured, and the curly-

headed child over the way had been lost all yesterday, and she was

going to make all sorts of preserves in a desperate hurry, and there

happened to be a saucepan in the house which was the very saucepan

for the purpose; and she knew all about the last book Tom had

brought home, all through, though it was a teaser to read; and she

had so much to tell him that she had finished breakfast first. Then

she had her little bonnet on, and the tea and sugar locked up, and

the keys in her reticule, and the flower, as usual, in Tom's coat,

and was in all respects quite ready to accompany him, before Tom

knew she had begun to prepare. And in short, as Tom said, with a

confidence in his own assertion which amounted to a defiance of the

public in general, there never was such a little woman.

 

She made Tom talkative. It was impossible to resist her. She put

such enticing questions to him; about books, and about dates of

churches, and about organs and about the Temple, and about all kinds

of things. Indeed, she lightened the way (and Tom's heart with it)

to that degree, that the Temple looked quite blank and solitary when

he parted from her at the gate.

 

'No Mr Fips's friend to-day, I suppose,' thought Tom, as he ascended

the stairs.

 

Not yet, at any rate, for the door was closed as usual, and Tom

opened it with his key. He had got the books into perfect order

now, and had mended the torn leaves, and had pasted up the broken

backs, and substituted neat labels for the worn-out letterings. It

looked a different place, it was so orderly and neat. Tom felt some

pride in comtemplating the change he had wrought, though there was

no one to approve or disapprove of it.

 

He was at present occupied in making a fair copy of his draught of

the catalogue; on which, as there was no hurry, he was painfully

concentrating all the ingenious and laborious neatness he had ever

expended on map or plan in Mr Pecksniff's workroom. It was a very

marvel of a catalogue; for Tom sometimes thought he was really

getting his money too easily, and he had determined within himself

that this document should take a little of his superfluous leisure

out of him.

 

So with pens and ruler, and compasses and india-rubber, and pencil,

and black ink, and red ink, Tom worked away all the morning. He

thought a good deal about Martin, and their interview of yesterday,

and would have been far easier in his mind if he could have resolved

to confide it to his friend John, and to have taken his opinion on

the subject. But besides that he knew what John's boiling

indignation would be, he bethought himself that he was helping

Martin now in a matter of great moment, and that to deprive the

latter of his assistance at such a crisis of affairs, would be to

inflict a serious injury upon him.

 

'So I'll keep it to myself,' said Tom, with a sigh. 'I'll keep it

to myself.'

 

And to work he went again, more assiduously than ever, with the

pens, and the ruler, and the india-rubber, and the pencils, and the

red ink, that he might forget it.

 

He had laboured away another hour or more, when he heard a footstep

in the entry, down below.

 

'Ah!' said Tom, looking towards the door; 'time was, not long ago

either, when that would have set me wondering and expecting. But I

have left off now.'

 

The footstep came on, up the stairs.

 

'Thirty-six, thirty-seven, thirty-eight,' said Tom, counting. 'Now

you'll stop. Nobody ever comes past the thirty-eighth stair.'

 

The person did, certainly, but only to take breath; for up the

footstep came again. Forty, forty-one, forty-two, and so on.

 

The door stood open. As the tread advanced, Tom looked impatiently

and eagerly towards it. When a figure came upon the landing, and

arriving in the doorway, stopped and gazed at him, he rose up from

his chair, and half believed he saw a spirit.

 

Old Martin Chuzzlewit! The same whom he had left at Mr Pecksniff's,

weak and sinking!

 

The same? No, not the same, for this old man, though old, was

strong, and leaned upon his stick with a vigorous hand, while with

the other he signed to Tom to make no noise. One glance at the

resolute face, the watchful eye, the vigorous hand upon the staff,

the triumphant purpose in the figure, and such a light broke in on

Tom as blinded him.

 

'You have expected me,' said Martin, 'a long time.'

 

'I was told that my employer would arrive soon,' said Tom; 'but--'

 

'I know. You were ignorant who he was. It was my desire. I am

glad it has been so well observed. I intended to have been with you

much sooner. I thought the time had come. I thought I could know

no more, and no worse, of him, than I did on that day when I saw you

last. But I was wrong.'

 

He had by this time come up to Tom, and now he grasped his hand.

 

'I have lived in his house, Pinch, and had him fawning on me days

and weeks and months. You know it. I have suffered him to treat me

like his tool and instrument. You know it; you have seen me there.

I have undergone ten thousand times as much as I could have endured

if I had been the miserable weak old man he took me for. You know

it. I have seen him offer love to Mary. You know it; who better--

who better, my true heart! I have had his base soul bare before me,

day by day, and have not betrayed myself once. I never could have

undergone such torture but for looking forward to this time.'

 

He stopped, even in the passion of his speech--if that can be called

passion which was so resolute and steady--to press Tom's hand again.

Then he said, in great excitement:

 

'Close the door, close the door. He will not be long after me, but

may come too soon. The time now drawing on,' said the old man,

hurriedly--his eyes and whole face brightening as he spoke--'will

make amends for all. I wouldn't have him die or hang himself, for

millions of golden pieces! Close the door!'

 

Tom did so; hardly knowing yet whether he was awake or in a dream.

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