Full Online Books
BOOK CATEGORIES
Authors Authors Short Stories Short Stories Long Stories Long Stories Funny Stories Funny Stories Love Stories Love Stories Stories For Kids Stories For Kids Poems Poems Essays Essays Nonfictions Nonfictions Plays Plays Folktales Folktales Fairy Tales Fairy Tales Fables Fables Learning Kitchen Learning Kitchen
LINKS
Valid XHTML 1.0 Transitional Free Classified Website Without Registration Free Classified Website Daniel Company
Twitter Twitter Add book
donate
Full Online Book HomeAuthor Arthur C. BensonPage 1
Famous Authors (View All Authors)

The Altar Fire - Part 13 The Altar Fire - Part 13

The Altar Fire - Part 13
April 3, 1891.A truth which has come home to me of late with a growing intensity is that we are sent into the world for the sake of experience, not necessarily for the sake of immediate happiness. I feel that the mistake we most of us make is in reaching out after a sense of satisfaction; and even if we learn to do without that, we find it very difficult to do without the sense of conscious growth. I say again that what we need and profit by is experience, and sometimes that comes by suffering, helpless, dreary, apparently meaningless suffering.... Nonfictions - Post by : rainydays - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 1003

The Altar Fire - Part 9 The Altar Fire - Part 9

The Altar Fire - Part 9
July 8, 1889. I lose myself sometimes in a dream of misery in thinking of the baseness and meanness and squalor that condition the lives of so many of the poor. Not that it is not possible under those conditions to live lives of simplicity and dignity and beauty. It is perfectly possible, but only, I think, for strong natures possessing a combination of qualities--virtue, industry, sense, prudence, and above all good physical health. There must still be thousands of lives which could be happy and simple and virtuous under more secure conditions, which are marred and degraded by the influences... Nonfictions - Post by : rainydays - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 2136

The Altar Fire - Part 8 The Altar Fire - Part 8

The Altar Fire - Part 8
June 14, 1889. It is comforting to reflect how easy it is to abandon habits, and how soon a new habit takes the place of the old. Some months ago I put writing aside in despair, feeling that I was turning away from the most stable thing in life; yet even now I have learned largely to acquiesce in silence; the dreary and objectless mood visits me less and less frequently. What have I found to fill the place of the old habit? I have begun to read much more widely, and recognise how very ill-educated I am. In my writing... Nonfictions - Post by : rainydays - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 2520

The Altar Fire - Part 7 The Altar Fire - Part 7

The Altar Fire - Part 7
April 25, 1889. I found to-day on a shelf a Manual of Preparation for Holy Communion, which was given me when I was confirmed. I stood a long time reading it, and little ghosts seemed to rustle in its pages. How well I remember using it, diligently and carefully, trying to force myself into the attitude of mind that it inculcated, and humbly and sincerely believing myself wicked, reprobate, stony-hearted, because I could not do it successfully. Shall I make a curious confession? From quite early days, the time of first waking in the morning has been apt to be for... Nonfictions - Post by : rainydays - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 709

The Altar Fire - Part 6 The Altar Fire - Part 6

The Altar Fire - Part 6
March 8, 1889. I went to see Darell, my old schoolfellow, a few days ago; he wrote to say that he would much like to see me, but that he was ill and unable to leave home--could I possibly come to see him? I have never seen very much of him since I left Cambridge; but there I was a good deal in his company--and we have kept up our friendship ever since, in the quiet way in which Englishmen do keep up their friendships, meeting perhaps two or three times in the year, exchanging letters occasionally. He was not a... Nonfictions - Post by : rainydays - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 1317

The Altar Fire - Part 5 The Altar Fire - Part 5

The Altar Fire - Part 5
February 3, 1889. To amuse oneself--that is the difficulty. Amusements are or ought to be the childish, irrational, savage things which a man goes on doing and practising, in virtue, I suppose, of the noble privilege of reason, far longer than any other animal--only YOUNG animals amuse themselves; a dog perhaps retains the faculty longer than most animals, but he only does it out of sympathy and companionship, to amuse his inscrutable owner, not to amuse himself. Amusements ought to be things which one wants to do, and which one is slightly ashamed of doing--enough ashamed, I mean, to give rather... Nonfictions - Post by : rainydays - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 847

The Altar Fire - Part 4 The Altar Fire - Part 4

The Altar Fire - Part 4
December 22, 1888. Perhaps my trial comes to me that it may test my faith in art; perhaps to show me that the artist's creed is a false and shallow one after all. What is it that we artists do? In a happy hour I should have said glibly that we discern and interpret beauty. But now it seems to me that no man can ever live upon beauty. I think I have gone wrong in busying myself so ardently in trying to discern the quality of beauty in all things. I seem to have submitted everything--virtue, honour, life itself--to that... Nonfictions - Post by : rainydays - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 2701

The Altar Fire - Part 3 The Altar Fire - Part 3

The Altar Fire - Part 3
November 6, 1888. It is a joy to think of the way in which the best, most beautiful, most permanent things have stolen unnoticed into life. I like to think of Wordsworth, an obscure, poor, perverse, absurd man, living in the corner of the great house at Alfoxden, walking in the moonlight with Coleridge, living on milk and eggs, utterly unaccountable and puerile to the sensible man of affairs, while the two planned the Lyrical Ballads. I like to think of Keats, sitting lazily and discontentedly in the villa garden at Hampstead, with his illness growing upon him and his money... Nonfictions - Post by : rainydays - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 1309

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 21. Temperament Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 21. Temperament

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 21. Temperament
CHAPTER XXI. TEMPERAMENTHugh never seemed to me to treat life in the spirit of a mystic or a dreamer, with unshared and secret experiences, withdrawing into his own ecstasy, half afraid of life, rapt away into interior visions. Though he had a deep curiosity about mystical experiences, he was never a mystic in the sense that he had, as great mystics seem to have had, one shell less, so to speak, between him and the unseen. He lived in the visible and tangible world, loving beautiful secrets; and he was a mystic only in the sense that he had an hourly... Nonfictions - Post by : 67834 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 2406

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 20. Attainment Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 20. Attainment

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 20. Attainment
CHAPTER XX. ATTAINMENTAnd then Hugh made the great change of his life, and, as a Catholic, found his dreams realized and his hopes fulfilled. He found, indeed, the life which moves and breathes inside of every faithful creed, the power which supplements weakness and represses distraction, the motive for glad sacrifice and happy obedience. I can say this thankfully enough, though in many ways I confess to being at the opposite pole of religious thought. He found relief from decision and rest from conflict. He found sympathy and confidence, a sense of corporate union, and above all a mystical and symbolical... Nonfictions - Post by : 67834 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 1675

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 19. Retrospect Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 19. Retrospect

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 19. Retrospect
CHAPTER XIX. RETROSPECTNow that I have traced the progress of Hugh's outer life from step to step, I will try to indicate what in the region of mind and soul his progress was, and I would wish to do this with particular care, even it the risk of repeating myself somewhat, because I believe that his nature was one that changed in certain ways very much; it widened and deepened greatly, and most of all in the seven last years of his life, when I believe that he found himself in the best and truest sense. As a boy, up to... Nonfictions - Post by : 67834 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 1803

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 18. Personal Characteristics Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 18. Personal Characteristics

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 18. Personal Characteristics
CHAPTER XVIII. PERSONAL CHARACTERISTICSHugh was always youthful-looking for his age, light and quick in movement, intent but never deliberate, passing very rapidly from one thing to another, impatient of boredom and dullness, always desiring to do a thing that very minute. He was fair of complexion, with grey-blue eyes and a shock head of light hair, little brushed, and uncut often too long. He was careless of appearances, and wore clothes by preference of great shabbiness. He told me in 1909 that he had only bought one suit in the last five years. I have seen him, when gardening at Hare... Nonfictions - Post by : 67834 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 3456

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 17. Burial Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 17. Burial

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 17. Burial
CHAPTER XVII. BURIALWe had thought that he should be buried at Manchester; but a paper of directions was found saying that he wished to be buried at Hare Street, in his own orchard, at the foot of his Calvary. My mother arrived on the Monday evening, and in the course of Tuesday we saw his body for the last time, in biretta and cassock, with a rosary in his hands. He looked strangely young, like a statue carved in alabaster, with no trace of pain or weariness about him, simply asleep. His coffin was taken to the midnight train by the... Nonfictions - Post by : 67834 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 2519

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 16. The End Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 16. The End

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 16. The End
CHAPTER XVI. THE ENDI had spent a long day in London at a business meeting we discussed a complicated educational problem. I came away alone; I was anxious to have news of my sister, who had that morning undergone a slight operation; but I was not gravely disquieted, because no serious complications were expected. When I reached my house there were two telegrams awaiting me, one to say that the operation had gone well, the other from Canon Sharrock, of Salford, to say that my brother was dangerously ill of pneumonia. I wired at once for a further report, and... Nonfictions - Post by : 67834 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 2323

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 12. Cambridge Again Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 12. Cambridge Again

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 12. Cambridge Again
CHAPTER XII. CAMBRIDGE AGAINHugh went to the College of San Silvestro in Rome, and there he found many friends. He said that on first joining the Catholic Church, he felt like a lost dog; he wrote to me: Rome, _Nov. 26_, '03. * * * * * My own news is almost impossible to tell, as everything is simply bewildering: in about five years from now I shall know how I felt; but at present I feel... Nonfictions - Post by : 67834 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 3084

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 11. The Decision Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 11. The Decision

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 11. The Decision
CHAPTER XI. THE DECISIONBy this time we all knew what was about to happen. "When a man's mind is made up," says the old Irish proverb, "his feet must set out on the way." Just before my brother made his profession as a Brother of the Mirfield Community, he was asked by Bishop Gore whether he was in any danger of becoming a Roman Catholic. My brother said honestly, "Not so far as I can see." This was in July 1901. In September 1903 he was received into the Church of Rome. What was it which had caused the change? It... Nonfictions - Post by : 67834 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 2081

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 10. The Change Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 10. The Change

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 10. The Change
CHAPTER X. THE CHANGEHugh has himself traced in full detail, in his book _The Confessions of a Convert_, how he gradually became convinced that it was his duty to make his submission to the Church of Rome; and I will not repeat the story here. But I can recall very distinctly the period during which he was making up his mind. He left Mirfield in the early summer of 1903, so that when I came home for the summer holidays, he was living there. I had myself just accepted from King Edward the task of editing Queen Victoria's letters, and had... Nonfictions - Post by : 67834 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 1901

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 9. Kemsing And Mirfield Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 9. Kemsing And Mirfield

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 9. Kemsing And Mirfield
CHAPTER IX. KEMSING AND MIRFIELDThe change proved very beneficial to Hugh; but it was then, with returning health and leisure for reflection, that he began to consider the whole question of Anglicanism and Catholicism. He describes some of the little experiences which turned his mind in this direction. He became aware of the isolation and what he calls the "provincialism" of the Anglican Church. He saw many kinds of churches and varieties of worship. He went on through the Holy Land, and at Jerusalem celebrated the Communion in the Chapel of Abraham; at Damascus he heard with a sort of horror... Nonfictions - Post by : dan7530 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 2320

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 8. The Eton Mission Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 8. The Eton Mission

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 8. The Eton Mission
CHAPTER VIII. THE ETON MISSIONThere were many reasons why Hugh should begin his clerical work at Hackney Wick, though I suspect it was mainly my father's choice. It was a large, uniformly poor district, which had been adopted by Eton in about 1880 as the scene of its Mission. There were certain disadvantages attending the choice of that particular district. The real _raison d'etre of a School Mission is educative rather than philanthropic, in order to bring boys into touch with social problems, and to give them some idea that the way of the world is not the way of a... Nonfictions - Post by : dan7530 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 1185

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 7. Llandaff Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 7. Llandaff

Hugh: Memoirs Of A Brother - Chapter 7. Llandaff
CHAPTER VII. LLANDAFFIn 1892 Hugh went to read for Orders, with Dean Vaughan, who held the Deanery of Llandaff together with the Mastership of the Temple. The Dean had been a successful Headmaster of Harrow, and for a time Vicar of Doncaster. He was an Evangelical by training and temperament. My father had a high admiration for him as a great headmaster, a profound and accomplished scholar, and most of all as a man of deep and fervent piety. I remember Vaughan's visits to Lambeth. He had the air, I used to think, rather of an old-fashioned and highly-bred country clergyman... Nonfictions - Post by : dan7530 - Date : May 2012 - Author : Arthur C. Benson - Read : 3394